Amazing how time marches on, Boy oh boy do I wish we could have the old times back Love and miss you

Hi Marie, Well, it will be four years on Tuesday since you said goodbye to this world and moved to a more peaceful place. I hope your still looking after me in some way. Every once an awhile I get a slap on the head from nowhere and I think that it has to be you. While your waiting for me to join you see if God has any fixer upppers. We always made a good team doing that stuff. Say Hi to your mother and father for me and tell them I miss them too! I'll always love you and miss you, John

Happy Birthday.....Miss You so much    

Hi Marie, First of all, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU!!! Sunday will be your 57th Birthday and as you always told me " Don't get me anything it's just another day!!!" Well, I'm going to get you your winter basket anyways! I know you want me to move on with my life but I just can't. I know the vows say Until Death do you part but I vowed for eternity so I guess your stuck with me. I've been real lucky that I still have Michael, Elaine and David watching over me. As far as John, Michelle, Meaghan and Kaitlin maybe one day they'll see that I tried my best for them and that I'm not perfect!!! Please, If you can, Give me a sign that you understand and are waiting for me to join you. Love, John

Dear Grandma Marie It's been a while since ive wrote, but i am always thinking about you. I'm sure you know that i had a pretty good Freshman year of highschool.  I did a lot of growing and maturing and i figured out what i want to do in life, i found out my strengths and weaknesses. I want to be a JAG officer for the Navy.  I am going to start the NJROTC unit this year at Port Charlootte High, ROTC is a class and a club that is Navy based. So this will really help me it will either guide me in the right  direction or it will show me that i really do not want to be in the navy. After all the years of people telling me i should be a lawyer , and me thinking i should be a lawyer i finally  thought it through and it would be something that i would really enoy to do.  Also , as a freshman i took a college course, Advanced Placement Human Geography. This class was a HUGE struggle for me. Beacuse i dont necessairly like History, or Geography  and of course thats what the class was based off of. But i gave it my all, and i had to take a college level exam at the end and we get scored on a scale of one to five and one and two are  failing but thre four and five are passing, and i recieved a score of a 3.    The APHG class at PCHS scored higher then any other APHG class in the country with an 83% passing rate. We beat Charlotte by 7 percentage points  and globally we were in the highest percentile brackets in all categories. And to add to that, they cut our teacher( my favorite teacher also) beacuse of budget cuts.  So the schoool system made a terrrible mistake beacuse clearly he is a great teacher. And with a 83% passing rate that means only 2 kids in my class failed.    Im starting to study for my permit exam that i can take the day of my birthday. Im so excited.  Oh we have a dog now. About a year ago we had some misfortune and someone broke into our house while we slept and stole the money in my mothers and fathers wallet and the salons bank bag. And its not that we live in a bad nieghborhood we really actually live in a good nieghborhood. But just someone making a bad decision in there life and taking us down with them. But we got a dog, her name is Maggie shes about 75 pounds. Shes a light brownn color. Shes a really pretty dog. She is a mutt, shes part pit, catahoula, kurr  and bull dog. Shes been a great addition to our family.    Yes we miss Massachusetts, in some aspects, but we are not moving back. We want to stay and stick it out here beacuse my mother doesnt want to switch schools for Kaitlin and I again, beacuse both of our parents know that moving isnt fun and that we dont like starting over again and again.   Ive been volunteering at red cross alot, getting my volunteer hours for scholarships and what not. Gotta get that money for college somewhere besides stuent loans beacuse those are giong to be a killing to pay off from law school >:/. Now i just gotta get a job. And Maintain good grades. The older you get the more you take on the more you have to juggle the more  stress but im handling it.   Kaitlin and I were supposed to go to Mass this summmer and visit Grandma Carol and Grandpa Steve and see you and Garandpa Roland and Grandma Marie. But there are some family things going on with my Grandpa Steves side so we decided it was better if we didnt go this summer, but that Grandma Carol and Grandpa Steve save there money and come down here for christmas. Beacuse they would love it down here. They are actually considering moving down here when they retire.    Ive been doing alot of thinking about everything going on the family ( You know what im talking about i know you can see whats going on). And Ive learned that Death makes people show  who they really are beacuse they dont know who can be next it can be them or it can be the ones they love most. Seeing you and Grandma Jeanne and Grandpa Roland all die in such a short  time, it made me who i am today. I am stronger then ever before. I have pictures of you guys all around me and it doesnt make me feel sad anymore. It makes me feel happy. Happy knowing tht  you guys arent on this planet dealing with all of this that we ( this whole family) is right now. And no i dont wish it would all go back to the way it was before beacuse ive learned so much from everything that has happened in my life.    Ive had the same 11:11 wish for about 6 months now. Every day on 11:11 i wish that for one day, i could talk to you and Grandma Jeanne and Grandpa Roland. Talk to you guys about  everything, maybe figure some things out. I wouldnt take a second for granted beacuse i know how much i miss you guys being in my life.    I miss you, and Love you,  -Meaghan

3 years ago today you left us. Still can't beleive you're gone. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I know in my heart that you are in a better place now. Doesn't make it any easier though. Love You and Miss you even More Elaine  

Hi Dear friend of mine!  I finally got John and Casey up to stay with me for awhile! SOOOOOO good to see them I sooooooo wish you were here too. I MISS u sooooooooo much! But we have been reminishing about our times together and how much fun we had! Especially the shower incident on one of our cruises! I know you remember that night What a riot that was!!!!! We both thought we'ld wet our pants from laughing!!! Gotta go for now going out for supper and then spend a little time at the casino!!!!! LOVE  you and MISS YOU Peggy

Its Thanksgiving and boy oh boy am I missing you   Love Ya Elaine

Hi Marie, Well, It's been 27 months since you left me went to heaven. I miss you more everyday!! I've tried to be the best I can be so I'll get to be with you in the future. For some news, Your godson and nephew Bryan bought his first home and is engaged to Kara (a sweet girl). They plan on getting married next October. I'll be there for both of us. Michael's doing good and seems happy. I can't tell you how John and his family is doing but I guess okay. Elaine and David seem to be handling the empty nest syndrome. Oh, I've let Casey get to fat but I'm trying to cut down on his treats. Casey keeps bringing your shirt out from under the bed in the last week. Does that mean your looking out for us??? I hope so!!! Well, You remember I LOVE YOU!!! John

Hi Marie, I see your sister Elaine is feeling alone right now. Don't worry about her, If I can I'll always be there for her and try to help her through her down times. As you know, Your family has always been my family too!!! I hope your having a good time with your family. Tell them I love them all!!!! It will be two years Saturday and I still miss you as much as ever. I'm moving back to Arcadia to be in our home again where I should have stayed because the move to Port Charlotte didn't work out as you probably knew anyways. Michael and Donna are coming down to see me on the 4th of July weekend and I'll be glad to see them. I'm glad that Michael and Donna are good friends. You take care and don't fret over me, OK!!! I love you and  miss you, John    P.S. And Casey  too!!!

Hey, I know, its been quite a while since I've been back to chat. I've been thinking about you lots lately.Coming up on 2 years and it still feels like yesterday. I find myself thinking and asking "WHY" did everyone leave at once. Hopefully to make me a stronger person, not sure. John is moving back to Arcadia next week, to the place where you were both so happy.Bryan has moved to Haverhill. He bought a condo and Kara has moved in. You'd like her, she's awesome. Which now means we are empty nesters. This may sound funny but I'm missing Dad, he was all I had left. Yea Yea I know I have David and Bryan but its not the same. There are times I feel like an orphan, its really strange not having parents or sisters. Sometimes it a very lonely feeling. OK now that I've finally said it I guess I feel better,NOT. When dad was here we went to visit ever week,but now I cannot bring myself to go and visit all of you. I promise I will try to find the strength ,soon Love you Always Elaine

I know by now that Dad got there. I did warn him to behave himself. His last couple of days were pretty tough on him. Since he got to the nursing home every Sunday he would pray for devine intervention, and i had to keep reminding him that you and ma weren't ready for him.I knew that when you two were ready you'd let him in. So thursday he got the permission he'd been waiting for. For the first time in a long time he's at peace and is with the ones that he missed the most. Take care of him and ma til we all meet again Love you all Elaine

Hi Marie, " I Love You " We are having an anniversery that we never wanted to happen aren't we. A year without you and the pain in my heart is not healing. Oh I remember the good times but memories are fleeting. It's the touch I miss. Hope you're getting alot of that good Heaven sun. You always looked great with your tan. Try to save me a spot under a palm tree, OK. Margie told me she's your second best friend because I'm your first, That's True!!!! Meaghan and Kaitlin are coming down in two weeks and John and Michelle the week after. Maybe then I'll start feeling a little better with them to talk to. Elaine and David and your Dad all are doing good so don't worry about them, just keep an eye on all of us. Say Hi to your mother for me! With all of my heart and mind I will love you forever, John xoxoxo

Well its been a whole year,and its no easier. I'm constantly thinking about you and how sick you were. Now you are at peace and no longer suffering with that horrible illness. I know in my heart that someday day we will meet up again and continue where we left off. You being the older sister and me the baby of the family. I can honestly say that " I will never stop missing you",it my ease up at point and time but it will NEVER go away. Love you and miss you with all my heart & soul Your Baby Sister

Hey, I was just sitting here enjoying the nice weather and thinking about you and how much you always loved the start of summer. Well its here finally.We planted some flowers today hopefully they grow. You know me Mrs Brown Thumb. With your connections maybe you can zap them so they grow,I'll keep my fingers crossed. Be back soon to let you know how we did. Love Ya and Miss Ya Elaine   Say hi to ma & doreen for me

Well, today make 11 months. Where does time time go. Last year at this time i was getting ready to put my BIG GIRL pants on and fly to Florida to see you. That honestly seems so long ago now. Its been a very trying time for all of us that you left behind. You know that old saying"time marches on" well sometimes i wish that it would and other time i don't want it to. I need you to know that i miss you more and more each day. Love you and miss you Elaine

Hi grandma, You heard me crying in study yesterday remember, i was drawing and drew a pool and then ur headstone i started to cry i had to leave and go to the bathroom. I miss you so much i love u so much everytime i think i used to erase u, remember. But ill never erase u again. i can never erase u  from my heart i wrote a poem for you ... Roses are red Voilets are blue sugar is sweet and so r u  u may be gone for forever  but in my heart u live forever i love you FOREVER!

Hi Marie, I thought I'd stop by today to talk to you, O"Kay! Tommorrow is eleven months since you went to Heaven. I don't know how time goes by in Heaven but I know time goes by real slow down here. I'm trying to keep busy with the new house but still have alot of time to think of you and remember our time together. I try to think of all the good times, and there were alot of them but I still come back to your illness and how much I miss you!!! I hope that part eases but but then I don't want to lose any of the memories. Well, I'll keep going and keep our love in my heart, O'Kay!! I'll LOVE You always, John

Hi grandma, Yea we are moving in with my grandpa i am excited. Today we started packing alot my whole room i almost done. I have 3 boxes and one bag of stuffed animals but i still have more. I miss you. I wish that we werent moving down there to live with just grandpa. Not that i dont love grandpa but it would have been nice if all of us could live together. I am on spring break this week. Its going to be very boring just me and kate up here well not today Anthony is here today. We have to go bowling this weekend, to practice for our states compittion, not this weekend but next. It should be fun, i hope i do well. Mom just called to know how we were doing on your packing stuff and she was surprised because Kaitlin closet is spottless! The only thing that is in it is two or three boxes i am not sure. I still have the poster board that i made for you for your funeral. I am never getting rid of it! I put a couple more pictures on it and am still looking for more to add to  it i have a few of us in the pool one of you that u sent kaitlin. And many many more I will need a bigger poster board soon. Well i have to go help kaitlin and anthony clean the room! Bye Love you ~Meaghan~

Hi Marie, Well, It was ten months yesterday. Believe me when I tell you it's not getting any easier without you as time goes by. We were so much a part of each others life that it makes it harder to be seperated. I know your keeping an eye on me and I hope you always do. As you know I bought a house in Port Charlotte and John & Michelle & Meaghan & Kaitlin will be moving in in July. We are all going to try to make this house a home. It will be nice having them here and not just for a visit. I have the old house up for sale. I just couldn't stay there anymore. You understand why! Your Dad seems to be doing alright and Elaine & David are taking great care of him. Michael hasn't been talking to me. Maybe you can help me with that? Say Hi to Jeanne for me and all your relatives & friends. I'll write again soon, I love you and miss you, Yours forever, John

Just thought i'd stop by and say "HI" i know its been a while. After we visited you we stopped by to see Ma. I hope you like the spring flowers, david had to wash the stone because a bird left his mark, didn't think you'd like that. Dad seems to be doing ok but he's very lonely,i don't think he'll ever get past all his. I'm still and always will miss you, it gets lonely for me too. Theres not a day that goes by that i don't think about you and wishes things had turned out differently. I guess they weren't suppose to,Ma needed you there with her to keep the party going. I will be back soon,Love Ya and MISS you so much,Elaine

Hi Marie-Hun,                      Well, it's seven months today. Boy, do I wish you were giving me hell about something stupid I did. It's been cool down here and will stay cool for another week. I remember you all bundled up on the lanai hoping the heat would return. Your Dad is doing ok. Elaine and David and John are keeping an eye on him. Ralph in the hospital and I've been visiing him. He seems to be getting better. Frank and Avis took me out for the annual steak dinner but it wasn't the same without you. Meaghan and Kaitlin are growing like crazy. Michelle misses her coffee buddy from Christmas-ME! Marie, I love you and miss you more each day. I'll write again soon, John

Hey Grandma Maire, I had a great christmas grandpa got us everything we wanted and we got some jewlery that was ur i got this nice braclet that u got from WHH and i wear it all the time. It has ur itnital and a gold necals that has ur initals. And some rings, and earing and more neclaces and a couple more braclets. But i just wanted to say that i love you and miss you. <3 U- Meaghan

Hi Marie, Did you watch me over the Holidays? Hope so! I went up to Worcester and stayed with John and Michelle and the girls. Oh I stayed with Elaine and David the first two days. Meaghan and Kaitlin said Santa was Okay but I was better!!! Everybody misses you alot but I miss the most because I miss the everyday stuff we did or said to each other. I did go see Marge and let her have a good cry on my shoulder. She wants to remember you at last Christmas. Say Hi to everyone for me up there, Okay. Love you always, John   

Well 2009 is here.Its going to hopefully be a better year. Everyone is fine we spent Christmas at Johns. What a cute place they have. Even dad made the trek up 2 flights and survived. There was a HUGH void and i think everyone could feel it. You can only imagine how much you are missed.John is back in florida with Casey. I talked to him yesterday, i think he's glad to be back to his routine. Hey,i bought an electric fireplace today so now i someplace to hang the stockings next year. It really nice and cozy here now. I'm going to see dad on sunday wish me luck. You are my personal guardian angel when dealing with him. Love Ya Much but Miss ya More and More each day. Elaine

hi, Just thought i'd stop by and visit.John is here with us for the holidays. He flew in friday along with a snow storm. it took him 2 hours to get to my house from logan. He stayed here til this morning. He left us to go to worcester in yet another snow storm.We're going to John & Michelles for xmas. I know you'll be watching over all of us and making sure we have a good day. I know it won't be easy for any one of us. Even though its been 6 months it still feel like yesterday. I miss you much, you can't even imagine. well thats all for now i'll be back soon. Love Ya Elaine

Hi  i thought i would say hi cause i had a bad day because its 1 year and 6 months that grandma jeanne has been gone, today at school we were talking about death so it was really hard. Grandpa John left 2 days ago i wonder where he is he called my mom but i dont know im still at Grandma Carol\'s house, Well love ya bye

Hi, Grandma Marie, Happy Thanksgiving, we went to Aunt Elaines for thanksgiving. Grandpa mad these picture frames that were beautiful, they had a lot of fun and good memories with me and you kate ,dad ,mom ,aunt Elaine,grandpa. It seems like you have been gone for a while but it has actulally only been like 4 months,  I wish you could have come to DISNEY with us, we had a lot of fun we kept saying how much fun we would have had with you. Grandpa surprised us on coming up for Thanksgiving, he drove up here be hind our backs and then was here staying at the LaQuninta for a whole day! Than on Thanksgiving he opend Aunt Elaines front door and let Casey do the job, Casey walked in and it took UAnt Elain a minuet to put the to together befor grandpa walked through the door, it was so nice to see him. He also got our family(dad mom kate and i ) a nice computer with a web cam  but somehow dad cant get the  web cam to work but now that grandpa is down here he can try to get it to work. So then we can talk to him and see him all the time. That will be nice, i wish i could see you all the time. I really  really miss you be sure that you check up on all of us and give us a sign that ur here. love you and miss you , Meaghan P.s. You'll be in my heart forever!

hi, Happy Thanksgiving, we're having thanksgiving here today. John,Michelle the kids and Dad are coming. I invited Mike but don't know if he's going to be here. I still get no response for him. Maybe you can use some devine intervention to help the situation. We all missed you so much. I'll be back soon Love Ya Elaine

Hi, I just stopped by to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY.I know you'll celebrate big time with the girls. Oh and have one for me. Love and Miss you,Elaine

Hi, I was just thinking about you a decided to stop by a say hi. I can't believe its been 4 months. It still feels like yesterday.I miss you so much. So many things have changed yet so many things have stayed the same. Maybe someday it will get easier but i not sure when. There are days when things seem ok and then ther are days like today when all i do is think about you and our lives as sisters. I know that you are still watching over me and making sure i behave but i'd much rather have you here fighting with me about stupid stuff.I think John and Dad miss you even more than me if thats possible. dads doing ok but giving me a run for the money. I know you understand what i mean. Say hi to Ma & Doreen for me and let Doreen know that Erin pick up her wedding gown this week. Tell her its beautiful.Well thats all for now LOVE YA BUT MISS YOU MOREElaine  

Hi Marie,              Well, This Sunday will be 4 months since you passed away and your birthday is coming up. I miss you so much!!!!! Elaine has been great keeping in touch with me, that helps but there is a lot of quiet time and your never out of my thoughts. Remember when we thought getting old and sitting in our rocking chairs together would be our fate. I wish it was!            Your Dad is doing fine, but he misses you too! John, Michelle and the girls seem to be doing alright. Michael I guess is alright too. Your friend Marge has been keeping an I on you at the park. Oh! I should tell you Casey misses you too and wonders where you are every time the answering machine goes on. I still have your message and I don't plan on taking it off.               I won't mind if you give me a visit or give me a sign that your alright in heaven. Say HI! to everyone for me! I'll love you always, John

Hey, Thought i'd let you know a little of what's going on. We when to see you & ma on sunday and ended up meeting Marge & her husband.It was difficult because i hadn't seen her since you left. We cried a little and talked a little, but i think you already know that. I haven't heard from Mike i just keep calling and leaving him messages. This sunday John,Michelle the girls & Dad are coming out for a birthday cookout, it should be fun.Well thats it for now. Miss you lots and love ya more  Elaine

Hi Hun,          Marie, You heard from Elaine that I took Meg and Kate to DisneyWorld. I tried to have fun with them and I did mostly but I couldn't stop thinking about how great it would be if you were here. Hope your glad I took them. They talked about you every day and I know they miss you alot like I do. Michael is real sick and I don't know if I should go north to take care of him. He's not talking to me and telling me what's going on when I call him. You were the parent he told stuff to and I think he misses that. If you think I should go north send me a message, ok! I just went through Tropical Storm Fay and I wish you were here with me. Casey and I are fine and there was no damage to the house. I LOVE YOU!!!! John

Hi,Well its been 2 months and it hasn't gotten any easier.John took the girls to Disney just like you planned.He sent me tons of pics.Looks like they had a wonderful time. I think you already know that, as you were watching every move they made. Mikes pretty sick, I hope he's going to be alright.Give him the strength he needs to get through.O.K.Say hi to all Love Ya & Miss Ya Elaine

Hi Hun, Its been six weeks since you left me and the pain of not holding ,kissing and just talking with you is not easing. I miss you so much. We had a lot of good times together that I want to remember but I can only remember your suffering. You were so strong through your illness. I hope my love for you was your strength. If you can, will you send me your love and strength to help me through my grieving for you. I'll see you one day and we can enjoy each other again forever. Say Hi to your mother, Doreen, Gail and all your relatives for me,OK! Talk Again Soon, I'll Love You Always, John

Just thinking bout you and thought i'd say HI. We are getting ready to go to Maine and John is getting ready to see the girls. They are flying down on the 2nd for 2 weeks. I think thats just what the doctor ordered. Dads doing ok.Just a slight scare last week.We all miss you sooooooo much. I'm trying really hard to get on with things,but its not easy.Love ya lots Elaine

Just thought i'd stop by and say HI!! Things are going ok. John and Michelle are getting settled in their new palce. Mikes doing ok.I talk to John alot,He's thinking of sending for the girls. That will be good for him.Say hi to Ma and Doreen for me.Love yA & Miss ya alot.Elaine

Hi,well today is not a good day but at least i have somewhere to go to talk to you.I am really missing you today.John got home on thursday.I think he'll be alright once he get used to you not being there.I think i will be ok too.I'm going to try really hard. Say hi to everyone for me Love Ya & Miss ya Elaine

I know that you got there.I hope you like the pictures we sent with you. I don't want you to forget how must fun we had back then. I already miss you so much.Just remember i will always have you in my heart.P.S.When you meet up with Ma & Doreen give them a big hug for me.Love Ya Elaine

Hi Marie, Well, It will be forty years today at 6:03 PM. I wish we were celebrating it on a cruise or what ever you wanted to do. I still don\'t think I\'m single even though the government says so. I\"ve been watching alot of ghost shows lately and wish you\'d try your hand at sneeking up on me sometimes. As far as the family, everything is status quo. I\'ll be going up to Dracut for Bryans wedding. I\'ll try to be a good stand in for you. wish you were coming too! I know how you like parties!!! Love you forever, John xoxoxoxoxoxo